#94 :
well, i am getting EMO.
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i was wondering should i post, should i finish my maths or should i pack luggauge or play audi.
so decided to post first, the rest later then sayyy bahh.
this is not why i am EMO.
i am EMO, yes, by two persons.
one, so important, another so not important.
they both attacked me, one before the 9pm show, one after.
BYTHEWAY, I LOVE that 9pm SHOW CAN?!
IT ROCKS~
;DD
it is the BEST show i have ever watched.
okayy, enough of those craps.
so before that show, you came to talk to me.
at first, i think you are really faking, fake until i can see your evil smile.
then GRADUALLY i started to somehow, forgive you, and understand you.
i dont know whyy.
i admit, i HATE you.
but suddenly you made me found out what the real world is.
scary indeed.
you may think i am a hypocrite blahblah, but i dont know why your sms affected my mood A LOT.
yes, although i have said that MY MOOD WONT BE AFFECTED BY ANYTHING,
but this time, one followed by another.
my usual routine, check emb, check my blog then, yep.
i read everything.
suddenly,, everything turns even darker.
i tries to ask myself, how much you mean to me.
i answer, a lot.
then i ask myself again, how much i mean to you.
i cant answer.
sometimes you make me think that i mean everything to you.
sometimes, however, i am just a passerby in your life.
i put my status online, yours too.
i am waiting for an answer,,
maybe you think i am sort of crazy of what,,
but i reallyyy want your answerr.
i hope i can be more important to you, and more heavy-weighing in your life.
i hope i can be worth of more than a few words.
twoway love, & how much i hope thoughts can be real actions this time.
yes, i can.
but i fear rejection.
i fear your ignorance.
i fear your another point of view.
thus, i try, to turn myself in another way in our relationship, but again, either your ignorance or rejection makes me going back and back again.
one time, you gave me hope.
another, you diminished it.
OKAYYYY.
i want to get out of EMO-VIRUS.
i think i wont carry on to spoil this mood of the PLAYGROUND.
so, I AM NOT EMO! ;DD
go back to your childish side bahhh, everyone!
innocent.
enjoy life &&
LIVE TO YOUR BEST EVEYRDAY!
decided, audi first.
packing & homework tomorrow.
shenghui