#204 :
hmm.
i decided to give myself a break from the geog hw.
i seriously had no reflections to make after reading the uber long essays.
:/
now i like to post twice a day.
this is my second post today~
weeeeee~
i am posting my thoughts here.
after reading some blogs, and listening to some sad songs.
as people had said,
again,
i am a devil.
i kill and i kill cruelly.
OK, WAIT.
I GOT SOMETHING TO SAY.
ALL MY WORDS HERE ARE ALL MY PERSONAL THOUGHTS.
no offence.
&& i wont jump off the building lar.
:D
LOL
sometimes, thinking back is a good yet painful thing.
so much of memorable things.
but so much of awful things.
i am a double sided person.
i backstab.
i do all the evil things.
i was never an angel.
i belong to hell.
because, so much of critizises. & insults.
of brainwashing, snatching, gossiping.
hmm.
maybe, i am.
maybe i may be dam fake, i act in front of teachers and friends.
i am never so noble eh.
i cant change whatever and how you look at me.
i am simply presenting the true self to you all.
you all may think differently.
i cant blame you all.
because diff people have diff views.
perhaps i have lost confidence in myself.
i may be proud, arrogant, like to boast, selfish, greedy,
but i am me, i am me.
so, i feel so upset when some things turn to me.
like how people will believe others than me.
i know,
maybe, i am capable of brainwashing people.
you're afraid.
but why listen to others, not me?
am i so scary?
i know, you're afraid.
i will wipe out everything and eat everything up,
& you'll be left with nothing.
but see here,
i, have at least, a bit of conscience.
i just want to be a normal human.
what's so difficult?
am i so scary?
i thought, i smile?
oh, i know why.
you believe, deeply, in hiding knives behind smiles.
that's how you see me.
& you all see me.
thanks :D
OH GOSH!
VIRGOES' 疑心病is getting too heavy for me !
:/